Courtesy of the well-informed, Yahoo Answers:
“Everyday consisted of eating, going to lectures, having group meetings, having individual counseling sessions, doing writing… going to more meetings, having more groups, etc.” Sound familiar?
Seems like I’m not on a roller coaster ride after all. I’m in rehab.
It didn’t take any intervention to get me here. It was difficult, but I arrived on my own power. I was hoping that the program would cease my bad habits, repair the damages, and supply strategies to avoid what got me here in the first place. Though I haven’t made it through all twelve steps, I’ve made good progress.
Last week’s withdrawal was the worst. I can’t tell you how many times I wanted to check myself out. The cold sweats, anxiety, insomnia, and violent mood swings (sorry, Hon…) have now lessened and I have a better appreciation of what literate life can be like: full of blogging, Twitter, Yelp, Prezi, iMovie, and so much more. They’ve even provided a structure for me to read and write here! The counselors are extremely knowledgeable, generous, and supportive; and connecting with others going through their own issues is invaluable.
I continue to be thankful for this opportunity. I will be better because of it. My students will be better because of it. I am, however, worried about a relapse. I suppose it is normal (to worry… and, for some, to relapse). I guess I could look into All Addicts Anonymous, but something tells me they might not understand my addiction to habits that prevent me from reading and writing. Any ideas?